If you’re looking for a point to this post, there isn’t one.
Life is crazy, some may argue that’s the beauty of life but for me, I’ll tell you straight life is crazy. I haven’t been through it all and I’m saying it, sometimes I feel like I can take on the world and other days I feel like shit and when I get through it, life can’t even drop some tickets to a UEFA Champions League game. Do I have to rob someone at gunpoint or something?
My thoughts on life when I don’t get what I want after a long day of being a great guy.
I wanted to write something inspirational at first but as I wrote this on my phone at work, too many people came up to me asking questions and before I knew it, I’d typed in platform 4 on my phone. At that point I knew that this post was lost in the matrix. Sometimes I do wonder about negative thoughts, are they worse than positive because as humans we have a lot of pride? If I’m not speaking for all humans, I’m speaking for myself because when I have negative thoughts I just let them fester internally and I find that I can’t say anything to people about them, as if I’m meant to do everything by myself and it’s a sign of weakness if I take help yet when I have positive thoughts, they come and go. They both really have as much power as I let them and whilst I know it, I can’t grasp it. No matter how many TEDx talks or positive blog posts I read, I know that for the situation to change, it’s something that I have to acknowledge.
Back to life being crazy, a lot of this post was written at work so I’d like you to know that there were a lot of delays that have made me semi-hate people because the delays were my fault as they always are. I know I’ve wrote about delays happening but I was thinking about how many different ways someone’s day can be ruined before they get into work. I feel like life trolls, imagine being late to work because someone else was late to work, or because control was sending traffic signals to the train and took too long to operate one signal, or because there was a power failure, stink bomb or something else stupid. I’m come to a conclusion that life is a troll and I must have learned a lot because everybody that I know thinks that I’m a troll (even though, that’s not true… I don’t even know what trolling is, I just know what a troll is. You know what? Don’t question this).
There is a lot with life being crazy, I can think of many examples. I think the weirdest one for me is that weird warm feeling in the stomach. It always comes for me when I feel oddly confident, it’s a feeling where I know that I will conquer life (not in a villainous way). The feeling doesn’t stay for more than an hour in my day though and I feel like a feeling like that is important for my (and everyone in general’s) mindset. It’s the kind of feeling that can push someone into following their dreams or just doing something that they were scared to do. Thinking about it, I wonder how some people are full of confidence and how others aren’t. Too many questions and not enough time for me to even try and act like I’m making a point.
When it comes to things like the Easter Bunny, Father Christmas and all the other imaginary heroes that we’ve come to believe in at one point or another, is there actually any point in telling children about them? I mean there’s money but that’s not really got anything to do with parents so what exactly is the point?
The last time that I was with my niece, I realised that children have so much imagination. Think about how many times you’ve been around a child who’s told you about their imaginary friends or personified their toys whilst you’ve sat there trying to play Assassin’s Creed thinking ‘you’re chatting shit bro’, there are also the imaginary friends that we all had when we were younger. What I’m getting at here is that children make up friends all the time and grow out of that phase with no pain at all. When it comes to Father Christmas and all the other guys it must be awkward to let your child know that he doesn’t exist and it’s worse to leave it, imagine if your child entered secondary school still believing in that guy.
The year I found out Father Christmas, the Easter Bunny and everything else I believed in wasn’t real was heart breaking. Personally, I don’t think children need to go through that kind of heart break in life (even if it does build character) and it doesn’t help that it’s promoted on television. Part of me wanted to believe that it’s a lesson to children that life isn’t what you think it is but that’s such a fucked up thing to teach someone so young. It just makes more sense to me not to tell children that stuff. I wonder if people make this kind of argument for religion (or KFC really selling fresh chicken) but let me not get too far from the point. All parents know what they’re doing (I hope) and they’ll know the right way to deal with this situation when it comes to it but for me, if were talking the about the fat dude who ONLY comes around a Christmas or a rabbit with a basket and eggs OR anyone else, I think it’s easier to skip all of it.
People will put anything on shirt won’t they? I’m not an expert on fashion and I’m not an expert on statements either, but I still got some shit to say on this (which you probably guessed from clicking on this post). On social media, I see people making all kinds of statements and some people taking the chance to put these statements on t-shirts and other than for monetary gain, I don’t get why people do it. I guess it’s ok if you’re saying something stupid like ‘gimme doughnuts’ but what about when you put a social statement on a t-shirt? Is it really helping to promote the statement or is it just a way for pockets to get lined?
A while back, I saw somebody modelling a shirt which said ‘fuck racism’ and I fully agree with it, fuck racism, fuck racist people, I don’t think I can say my explicit thoughts at this point in time but fuck all kinds of racism and if you support it then please know that you’re a cunt. Back to the post, I feel like putting that sentiment on a shirt adds no value to the battle against racism. If you put something on a shirt, it may show how you feel but the minute that you start selling it, it has to be asked if you feel really strongly about the issue. If a child goes missing and you put it on a shirt to promote that the child is missing, would you sell it? I highly doubt it, no parent wants to milk their child’s misfortune (well there may be two who’ve been profiting off the death of their child for over 10 years but that’s me speculating).
I’m just saying that putting a statement on a shirt and selling it, devalues the meaning of said statement in my eyes. I might even go as far to say that just putting it on a shirt even if you don’t intend to sell it still devalues the statement. Other than potential promo, I don’t really know how it benefits a cause and given the power of social media and word of mouth it seems like there are more effective ways of promotion. I honestly feel like in a situation like this, the person with the most to gain is the person who puts the statement on the shirt which doesn’t sit well with me. Personally, I don’t think that statements which reflect feelings towards society should be used for fashion, it seems like satire to me.
You know what, sometimes I envy elderly people (ONLY SOMETIMES). Whenever I’m working and I see old people, they’re always happy (unless there are delays) and I wonder what makes them happy. Maybe it’s because they don’t have to work anymore and they have a special kind of oyster card that allows them to travel across London for free (If you’ve read this and don’t know what an oyster card is then I’ll let Wikipedia explain). It could also and more believably be that they’ve seen what life has to offer and at the point in life they’re at, all that’s left is to enjoy it (like how we’re ALL supposed to). Seriously, I don’t see a group of people appreciate the small things in life like the elderly do, whenever I save a couple of newspapers for them, they’re always so grateful because they don’t have to walk any further. I tend to deal with people in their 30s and 40s and I may not have told you about them so I’ll give it to you straight! They’re also nice people… There are a considerable of arseholes/pricks/cunts/unpleasant people (take your pick) amongst them though.
I say this but I never want to be old. I like my energy, even if it comes with the stress of stupid questions that most likely won’t bother me in a couple of years’ time. I do still wonder if the happiness is a result of growing up, or if it’s to do with the period that the elderly people I see grew up in. I know that with my generation, technology has made everything easier and the way that we go about things, we are entitled (I’m not even lying, I knew a guy who acted like he deserved the highest level of respect just for existing). I sometimes like things spoon-fed to me and I can put down activities if I don’t get instant gratification.
Generally speaking, elderly people seem to be nicer (even though, I’ve heard different) and more willing to talk. They don’t seem like they’ve got anywhere to go so when I say good morning or smile at them, I don’t get the British smile of awkwardness.
I always thought that old people were miserable about things not being how they used to and what not but clearly, I watch too much TV. It might really be that the older we get, the more content we get with how things are (I’ll have to let you know in 10 years or something) and because of that elderly people know what and what not to be bothered about. I also have another theory which is that they’re shmoking DAT dank and don’t give a fuck anymore.
I’ve got another question today! How would you feel about the afterlife if it was a situation where we had our consciousness uploaded into a cloud which was based on a paid subscription? You could get a gold package or something similar where you enter the cloud rich and live a good life, more opportunities are given to you which makes it easier to stay with the package and you’re one of the first people to get choices like tickets to prestigious events, or general luxury stuff. Of course for this, you’d have to die with a lot of money in your bank account. There would be other packages as well which depend on the subscription your consciousness chooses once you die.
This basically means life version 2 which sounds great in a way (possibly). From your perspective would you consider it a good thing? Would this kind of life give you some incentive to work harder to live well in the afterlife? Does this scenario seem like some freshly pressed bullshit to you? I ask these questions because a few years ago, I watched a video that was along the lines of this subject and I didn’t know what to think. I then thought about it a while ago and concluded that this concept sucks in my personal opinion.
I know I said that life version 2 sounds great in a way, because there’s a lot to enjoy about life but it also means in that situation, I’m probably going to have to go through a lot of the same nonsense I’ve gone through and will go through in my lifetime. There might be a chance for me to live well but there might also be a chance that I’ll live terribly and Lord knows that I’m not going to be stuck in the afterlife, working a job that I don’t want, getting paid barely enough to keep a low level subscription running and having what might turn out to be ultimately useless worries in the pursuit for a better subscription package. I know I’m going to die one day and something like this doesn’t make the idea more comforting for me, if I’m honest, I might as well be dead for good if I’m going to have to go through something like that.
If you’ve been following this blog for a while then I’m sure you know, I like things easy and I’m lazy. I personally wouldn’t consider going through life twice if it didn’t get easier the second time without me having to do anything. That’s just me though, if you were in that situation, would you be willing to subscribe?
Let me ask a question, do you allow the negative thoughts that others publicly have of you to motivate you to do better? I know that some people use it as motivation in order to prove the ‘haters’ wrong or maybe it just makes it feel that much sweeter when they’ve done well in the future and the ones who didn’t believe find out. I believe that it’s a good way to rationalise things, changing the negative into positive and pushing further with it but that doesn’t work for me, I have a hard time letting go of things.
I’ve said that I’m petty in the past and the truth is that when somebody is overly negative towards me I think “fuck you and everything that you stand for…Bitch!” Depending on how harsh the words are will depend on how long I hold on to the negativity. I want to do well and I can see why it would count as a way of telling the negative people that they’re wrong but I know that if I succeed because of the negativity then it wouldn’t satisfy me. It’s hard to describe but I’m not the type of person that wants to give someone who was negative towards me the satisfaction of knowing that they contributed to me doing better, I’m more the type of person who wants to achieve things in spite of negativity not because of it.
I feel that those who are negative towards you and don’t believe in you don’t deserve anything from you. Not even your insults, at the same time I know that everyone is responsible for their own lives and the paths that they take.
Not to get too far from the point, let me ask the question again, do you allow the negative thoughts that others publicly have of you to motivate you to do better?
I feel like I’ve said torture people with success at some point on this blog, but disregard those words from me
The other day, I was at the museum with a friend of mine and I only realised something that I think I should have realised a while ago. How quickly the world around us is changing and how we’re effortlessly adapting to it. I looked at what you could consider to be the history section and I saw things like a PlayStation 3, iPhone 3 (this really got to me because I have an iPhone 4… I know) and other things that I thought were fairly modern. That got me thinking back to a conversation I had with my brother a few years back where he told me that we’re at a point where things can be released and considered obsolete within a year or two.
I don’t know if this has been going on for ages or if it’s a more recent thing but it’s a scary thing to take in considering that we’re affected by it but because of how incremental the change is it just seems completely normal. I’d understand if I saw something like an old car there because they’ve come a hell of a long way in 200 years or so but a PS3 which is only 11 years old… Man that is crazy!
Like I said before, this is something that I should have noticed earlier and phones are the best example of this. The Nokia 3310 was released in 2000 and the first iPhone was released in 2007. It only took 7 seven years to go from having a phone with no internet capability to practically having a laptop that fits in our pockets, think about that. When looking at that, then it becomes easier to think about all of the other things that have made a crazy amount of progress.
I’ve got to admit that after I managed to stop being wowed it made me realise how much I take this stuff for granted. Technology is going to continue to get better, this is inevitable and where it is now is amazing especially considering that you can pretty much talk to anyone in the world on your phone. I don’t know what’s going to happen next and what’s going to completely disappear but I do know that whatever piece of technology disappears, most likely won’t be missed and whatever replaces it probably won’t even last that long as we continue to consume things. One thing that really got me is that at one point, it’s going to have to be explained to the future generations. I honestly can’t imagine telling my future children about the PS3 only to hear that it’s primitive (wireless controllers, internet connection, playing blu-rays… ALL OF THAT PRIMITIVE!? REALLY?)
I can’t say that noticing this is going to make me a better person and consider how amazing the technology around me is. If I’m honest with you, I have a PS4 that I don’t play, a PS3 that’s on standby in case I want to play it even though I won’t play it and a damn iPhone that I’ve been plotting on getting rid of for ages. I will say this; it’s really interesting to take in what we use because it gives us some perspective of how quickly things are advancing.
Another question for anyone reading (I could get used to just making this a blog which asks loads of questions). If you had a problem with somebody, would you expect your friends not to have any contact with the person you don’t like due to association?
It happens sometimes, we all have or have had people that we don’t like who our friends happen to be fond of but for some people that’s a red flag. A lot of people are quick to cut others off and having a friend of yours be friends with somebody that you don’t like can be reason for that sometimes. Personally I don’t believe in all of that, I don’t have the ability to choose the people that my friends like and I do think it’s petty to an extent. What I’d hope is that if a friend of mine was friends with somebody that I didn’t like, I wouldn’t come up as the topic of conversation because there’s really no need to say anything about me in that kind of situation.
Once again I’ll ask. If you had a problem with somebody, would you expect your friends not to have any contact with the person you don’t like due to association?
I have a question for anyone reading. I think it’s been a while since I last asked a question on here and if it hasn’t then let’s just act like it has.
If somebody disrespected you online, would you leave it or would you keep tabs on them until you found their location to punish them for the disrespect?
A lot of people, if not all people hate being disrespected and with good reason. It shows that you’re viewed as someone lesser in the moment, I’m not saying that people have to think highly of you but imagine what they must think of you to be comfortable enough with showing disrespect. Some people who have been disrespected on social media have gone as far to find out where their target lives whilst others have taken different paths.
Personally I don’t know what I’d do in this situation but I don’t think I’d ever condemn someone for showing another person that they’re not to be messed with (as long as it doesn’t go too far).