Questionable lyrics

Me trying to figure out if the artist really just said what they said

We all have those songs that we listen to where we hear a certain bar that makes us pause the track and say “hold up!” Lyrics that have been sprayed by the artist but give you the feeling that it wasn’t approved by everybody who was around at the time the artist said it in the studio. It’s kind of normal to be honest and I don’t know if that’s weird or not because some of the lyrics come with questions that need to be answered.

Not long ago I decided to listen to ‘Family Tree’ by Ramz, a divisive artist from the UK. The song itself sounds pretty nice, he’s got the kind of music that looks like it can appeal to people from the ages of 7-14 so I can see why he gets a lot of views on his songs, but not to stray too far from the point, he has line that goes “If I eat then my people are eating too, If it’s beef then my people are beefing too, If I’m dying my people are dying too.” Hold up, wait a minute? If I’m dying my people are dying too? Like as in if he’s getting shot in the head then so are his friends. I don’t even know the guy and I’m asking why he signed up his friends to this scheme. Why did he do it on a song? I want to ask if his friends are fine with this but his friends are singing it as well (fuck, one even has his hands in prayer sign).

The song is a nice way to say that there’s a strong sense of loyalty between himself and those around him but this sounds like some cult (or blackmail) shit. I’m not letting this one go, because this guy confidently said he’s taking his friends to the afterlife with him regardless of whether they feel like dying that day or not. Not a single person walked up to him after he recorded that line to say “it sounds nice bro, I’m not even down for that dying stuff.” If I was personally in Ramz’s position and said that, it would have meant that I’ve been buying my friends stuff they can’t afford. Taking ownership of all of my friend’s date of death is serious claim.

I know it’s just lyrics but some of these lyrics are just asking for problems, I’m just saying if my friend and I are in a fight with some other people and my friend has told me if they die, I die then this is me.

Not dying bro.gif

Let me show another visual representation of me if my friend says I die when they die just to make it clear.

Not dying bro 2

If there’s something that I’ve learned from this, it’s what I’m not letting any musicians I know associate me with.


Some thoughts on body positivity


I’ve noticed a trend in recent years where people have started becoming more “body positive” and are supposedly less afraid to post pictures of themselves online. This mostly applies to fat people who in this day and age have the confidence to skin out and embrace everything about their bodies instead of wearing larger tops to hide how big they are. That seems like a good thing to me because growing up, fat people used to be on the end of jokes just for being fat, even chubby people could catch those jokes and it built character but it was demoralising at the same time. It’s not as if people don’t want to cuss fat people anymore, it’s more that people are scared because of the online backlash that comes with it, political correctness protects a lot of groups and fat people are one of those groups. Given that people are afraid to offend, I have a few thoughts on this body positivity stuff I want to share.

The idea of cussing fat people for being fat has never truly made sense to me (if I’m being honest, some of the stuff said is very creative and funny) but I guess that it sucks because it’s not what many would consider to be the ideal body on a man or woman. I don’t think that’s changed at all despite the times that we’re in. The real difference is that people can now speak up on it without feeling like they’re not being backed up however, that won’t stop people from feeling what they feel towards fatness if the thoughts are negative. People have always joked on the features of others, whether it’s height, acne, hairstyle or anything else, it’s just what people do; sometimes, I feel these aren’t things we should look into too much because it never really leads anywhere productive and on top of that, it says a lot about someone who goes at another person’s appearance just to make them feel bad.

The whole body positivity thing is nice but I have to ask if the pictures are being posted out of true confidence or because people know that with pc culture in place, they’re very likely to get nice comments. Sometimes I look at people hashtagging body positivity and the caption that they put shows me that they’re after retweets and validation rather than proving a point. The captions always go something like “I’m so confident in my body now #bodypositivity” or “I weigh this much and I don’t care #bodypositivity.” It’s nice to show confidence in your body but I feel the purpose is defeated if you claim you don’t care what others feel or your confidence is undying only for you to attach a hashtag which will protect your feelings. Honestly, if anything I feel that the caption wouldn’t have any relation to the person’s weight or confidence if they were really trying to display confidence.

One last thing I see about the body positive movement is how dangerous it can be. Supporting people and trying to show them that their insecurities don’t matter is great but there are levels to this shit. The thing about pc culture is that if you say something that’s true but could be even slightly offensive then you’re painted as the villain and it doesn’t make sense. There are people who are dangerously overweight that like to post body positivity photos however, if someone points it out then they start getting cussed by people who are trying too hard to be politically correct and it leads nowhere. Some people are happy with their weight and that’s fine but if someone’s health is at risk then the body positivity movement needs to be ignored, if we’re thinking about things with logic then I’m sure everyone can agree that being healthy is more important than being told you’re “slaying.” Encouraging someone to stay a certain weight won’t help when said person runs into weight related health issues and it starts making life difficult for them.



You’re at a gathering in the park, the sun is beaming on a 27 degree day (this is very hot for the UK) and everybody there is doing the drugs, dancing to music or talking to each other. The vibe is calm and you’re most likely wondering why there’s no BBQ, well guess what? There is. The social atmosphere surrounding the park has got you talking to everybody so you strike up a conversation with an interesting looking person and who could imagine that the passion that they have for their dreams matches yours, there’s a connection which signals the makings of a long lasting friendship. You ask them “what do you with yourself?” anxiously waiting for the answer so the conversation can continue for you to find out more about them and 5,4,3,2,1 “I’m a creative…”, you blatantly mouth out “what the fuck!?” and they see you do it as the situation begins to grow awkward because you have nowhere to go from that point.

It probably doesn’t go like that for most but when it comes to me, I have to ask what is a creative? I see so many people around my age group branding themselves as creatives and I don’t get it. I’ve always believed that creative is a quality, not a job title so when people do things, even if they’re hobbies, the term creative simply doesn’t work. It almost seems like someone who brands themselves as a creative does so because they don’t want to say what exactly it is they do but the thing is, nobody is obligated to share what they do with others and there are more effective ways of dancing past that subject in my opinion. What I’ve just wrote may not be the case but if somebody does something in the creative field, surely it makes more sense to just say what it is, if you write, then you’re a writer, if you draw then you’re an artist not this business of using an umbrella term that just about means something.

There are a lot of things that make me wonder about people my age. When I look on social media it looks like we’re all trying to be a part of something, we’re all trying to make ourselves seem grander than we are so we start giving ourselves titles. I can’t say how many people there are who sell shirts and call themselves CEO’s, the amount of people who make YouTube videos and start referring to themselves as social media influencers, the amount of people who start writing raps and calling themselves executive lyricists (I made the last one up). The title sounds cool but it doesn’t really add anything, I can’t think of an upside of referring to yourself that way.

Me when I see someone calling themselves a “creative”

There’s a side to this “I’m a creative” stuff that I’m not seeing and I would like to understand it. No matter how much I’ve thought about it from my point of view, I can’t help but feel that it’s a pompous way for someone to describe themselves. I’m not going to lie, I really don’t like the term and when someone describes themselves as a creative, I just want to switch off. If being a creative means something beyond the quality then I’d like to know so that I can make sense of it. Truth be told, even if I do ever understand what that term means, I know for a fact that I’ll never refer to anybody as one, but still that doesn’t stop from wanting to know what it means.

A question on anime

If you had a chance to see any anime have a special one off remake what anime would you choose? Honestly my choice would be Pokémon, I would love to see the Kanto journey redone for a run that was just as long as the original indigo league series. If I saw it remade, I still would want to see Ash as the series’ protagonist but I’d want it to be more true to the generation one games rather than having all of the character of the day stuff, I feel like it would make the series more appealing to watch.

I don’t mind seeing characters of the day but when you look at the Pokémon games and all the things that you have to do, it’s more than possible to make a series that’s more true to the games or at least has a good story (the Pokémon Adventures manga showed this). I could honestly imagine the scenarios that the series would come up with, Ash losing to Misty the first time that he faces her (because that battle is fucking difficult), camping out in the cave just before Lavender town (I forgot its name… and I’m too lazy to do a quick Google search), having a Silph co arc. Personally, I think it would work well especially when I look at how well received the current anime was when it first came out.

Pokémon Origins kind of pulled off the idea that I’m talking about however, it was a miniseries which was a little heartbreaking. To be able to see a full Pokémon series where there episodes stay true to the game would do the anime justice and I think that it’s way too long overdue.

Marriage proposals…


Not too long ago, I saw a man propose to his girlfriend. I don’t know the ins and outs of their relationship but what I do know is the marriage proposal wasn’t accepted. After seeing that, the first thing I thought was the relationship had to be over or at least severely damaged and I found myself thinking about what I would do in that situation and honestly, I don’t know how I would cope. Marriage isn’t something light, I feel that it’s something that both people have to be on the same page for otherwise the relationship could get unnecessarily complicated.

Not everyone wants to get married which is ok, but if marriage is something that both people want, then at some point is has to be discussed, right? I can’t imagine marriage being one of those things that a couple takes a chance on because it’s supposedly a big step. I’ve always thought that if a couple get married, then the likelihood is they are both well aware of the intention for the relationship to go in that direction before the proposal is even made. Everybody is different when it comes to the way that they react to being rejected in that situation but I doubt that there’s somebody out there who doesn’t ask questions of the relationship once that happens.

My soul when I saw the rejection

I know that some people get into relationships for reasons like passing time or avoiding being single and it’s not as if they share that information with their partner but the more you get to know someone, the more your gut feeling will tell you about them.

I’ve heard of marriages still going ahead even after the first few proposals got rejected (just had to read that again… oh boy) and I’m interested in hearing people moved past that. My insecurities would start showing if that happened to me to be honest and I would be asking a lot of questions of myself and the relationship. I feel that it’s hard to accept any justification for the rejection of a marriage proposal without feeling that your partner is hiding something that they don’t want to tell you, whether it is cheating or that you haven’t done a good enough job as a partner to make them feel ready for marriage.

When I saw the marriage proposal get rejected, I felt like the proposal was made on a whim and the man knew what he wanted to hear but he hadn’t discussed the situation with his girlfriend. They definitely weren’t on the same page and I could feel the awkwardness even though I was a few feet away. There’s a chance that the couple are working their way through the situation and might be better off for it but I still can’t help but think about the awkward period that they encountered.

Quick question time

Quick question time

If you could make one thing that you think people need in their everyday lives what would it be? A lot of times, we don’t know that we need something until we have it but there are things we don’t have that people have thought for a while and could benefit the human race. I’m pretty sure people have made millions off selling shit that we don’t need but that’s beside the point.

I don’t think it exists so what I’d want is a dock that you could put your hairbrush or comb into which would absorb the dandruff into a tray for emptying at a later time. I fucking hate dandruff, I don’t really deal with it but at the same time I’d prefer to prevent it from becoming a problem for me because I’m not ready for the full effects of it at my age. Other than that I just think it would be extremely useful.

Anyway, let me ask again, if you could make one thing that you think people need in their everyday lives what would it be?

Virtue signallers…

People when they get a chance to virtue signal

The other day, I saw a fight and I’m going to be honest, one of the people involved looked like he was getting rocked UFC style. It all seemed to happen in slow motion because he couldn’t find his balance but he was eating those fists. I’m surprised he didn’t get injured a lot more because it was definitely a four on one but that’s not the point. A lot of people stood watching the fight and one person walked past saying “It’s funny how no one wants to call the police.” She left and the person next to me asked why she couldn’t do that and he brought up a very valid point.

Me and the person I was next to watching the fight

I can’t stand virtue signallers, always pretending to take the moral high ground in order to show that they have the wellbeing of others in mind yet when it comes down to the actual thing, they’re just as idle as those who aren’t signalling. I don’t understand what people gain from pretending to care, actions will always speak louder than words so if you don’t follow through, then are you really in the right for calling people out on not doing what you supposedly think is the right thing to do? People aren’t perfect and humans won’t always have the right response in a situation but we can definitely call bullshit on someone who also doesn’t have the right response but wants to seem like they do, so it’s easier just to not do it.

Virtue signallers are on the same level as people who snap in the club pretending to enjoy their time just so that people can validate them. It’s all a facade, a crappy one at that and it does no favours for anybody, you’d think by now people see that kind of stuff as a waste of time but it seems to me as if more people are doing it and I know that I’ll never truly understand why. There are some situations that are hard to be truthful in but I don’t think they’re the ones where people virtue signal, it looks as if people just want to feed their egos when they do the whole virtue signalling thing and that’s fucking annoying.

Life isn’t a competition so there’s no need for anybody to really try and prove something only for it to be obvious that it means nothing to everyone involved. If you want to be an example you’ve got to lead by it, we’re told this God knows how many times.

Social media apologies…


One thing that I see happening a lot are public apologies on social media when someone does something wrong and you know what? I don’t get it. Why do people apologise to social media when they’re guilty of wrongdoing for anything? Doesn’t it only make sense to apologise to social media if what you’ve done has affected the public? If that isn’t the case then what’s the point in saying sorry to the public? Who is the apology meant to touch exactly?

Social media allows for strangers to know the business of other strangers but that doesn’t mean that anybody is entitled to know anyone else’s business. It’s as if the fact that business can made public on social media means that everybody who sees it is involved but if we’re being honest, the majority of spectators on social media are either looking for conflict or entertainment, they really don’t care about what’s happening. A lot of people get put under pressure to give an apology once they’re accused of something but when they eventually cave and give said apology, it still isn’t enough. Even more so, it doesn’t make much sense to allow people who aren’t involved in the situation put pressure on you, the apology is only meaningful if it’s given to those directly and involved and they forgive the action.

I’ve seen so many social media apologies and not one has made any sense to me. I’m going to be honest, if I offend a blogger and their friends get pissed at me then it is what it is, as far as I’m concerned if I apologise, it’s only going to be to the blogger that I offended directly, their friends can enjoy my blogger fingers. Apologies over social media have always seemed fake to me, it looks more like it’s damage control in order to preserve a good reputation rather than apologising to show that you’re deeply ashamed by what you’ve done.

Blogger fingers!

I’d go as far to say that an apology over social media is a pisstake based off it seeming as if the person apologising values the forgiveness of the public over the ones they offended. No matter how I think about it, a social media apology will never make sense to me, but it seems to be a decent PR tactic.

Challenging games…

Me enjoying a difficult game

These days, when I play games I don’t really tend to struggle (unless it’s killing that fucking first dragon in Dragon Age: Inquisition), I don’t want to say that it’s because games have gotten easier over the years, I think it’s more to do with the fact that I first put my hands on a games console controller when I was around 6 or something. What I’m saying here is that when games come out and I see the controls I feel that it’s kind of easy for me to adapt to them so if I spend a long time trying to complete the game, chances are that it’s based off me not playing it as regularly as I could be. It makes me miss finding games really challenging.

Games shouldn’t be ridiculously hard because we’re supposed to complete them but, I do enjoy having a bit of a struggle because it makes it that much sweeter when I complete the game. I miss the feeling of being challenged when I play a game, the last time that I decided to play a game to challenge myself was when I played Uncharted 3 in crushing difficulty, I did way better than I thought I would and fell into despair asking if this was the curse that was laid upon me… Minimal struggle in games. It didn’t really go like that but I couldn’t help feel a little disappointed by the fact that I didn’t have those frustration induced tears. When I play games, I find myself giving more focus to the story because they don’t seem as challenging these days (or maybe I’m playing the wrong games).

Games like the Grand Theft Auto series will always have a special place for me because they’re rarely easy (GTA 5 was a pushover compared to the other ones I’ve played but it wasn’t easy). Part of the reason that I look so forward to GTA releases are because I know that the game will have a bit of a challenge and that packs so much excitement into the game. Difficult games have always had a hold on me, I think it’s because sometimes my pride kicks in and it also gives the hours that I put in some purpose rather than leaving me feeling as if I wasted so much time. I’d even say that it slightly teaches us something about not giving up because something that seems difficult can be overcome and on the second playthrough it’s hard to understand why it seemed so difficult to begin with.

It can piss me off to play a game that’s hard, so much so that I might call the characters motherfuckers or something like that but it’s also engaging and in a weird way, I enjoy it. It makes the game really worth it when it takes so much of your time because you’re really engaging your brain and you can almost feel your reflexes getting sharper as well as that good feeling when you progress. When I play games like the Assassin’s Creed series I’m only playing them because they’re assassin’s creed games but they’re stupidly easy.

It is what it is though, if time is spent practicing something then the only thing that can happen is to get better even if it is at an expense.