Work thoughts: Yourself

When we get to a certain age, it’s expected that we’re in a serious committed relationship or married. I have no idea why this is but I feel like it can lead to an unnecessary pressure to not be single, as if it’s a curse, like we were born in a relationship. I see that some people feel like shit for not being in a relationship which is crazy. Personally, I think the worst pressure comes from those people who relationship hop or just fuck around freely kind of mistaking it for a relationship and one thing these guys like doing is making statements implying that being single is a thing of madness.

“How do you manage to be single?”, “I can’t be by myself too long!” and some other good shit. I get how being single at a certain age doesn’t make sense to some but it’s not a curse. One thing that it screams to me when people say this stuff is that they don’t/can’t entertain themselves. You’ve got to be able to entertain yourself, it’s essential. Those times where you come up with a funny thought and laugh to yourself, or when you’re listening to some music with seriously good vibes and you do a few dance moves because nobody is watching to tell you that your dancing is depressing are all vital and it’s weird that people can’t relate. If you can’t entertain yourself, I don’t think you’re going to be able to entertain someone else as much as possible.

I can’t say for sure but I wouldn’t be surprised if a lot of single people are able to do things and enjoy their own company. There shouldn’t be a reliance on other people to make you feel positive about yourself and when it comes to the subject of relationships, it shouldn’t matter if somebody is single in their 30’s and beyond. There definitely comes a time in life for relationships but it shouldn’t really be out of the desire to not be single and even if it is, I’m. It sure why single people have to hear about it. Everybody is different after all.

I wouldn’t say that a lot goes into being single but that doesn’t make it an empty void of singleness begging to be plugged by someone else.

Random thought

Sometimes, it feels comforting when I see someone say they don’t know where they’re going in life. To an extent, nobody really knows where they’re going but when looking at success stories it can be easy to forget. For someone who does know where they’re going, it’s not always like that and that’s reassuring as well. We only get one life and throughout the early years, we’re kind of expected to know what we want in terms of career and achievements but to know that, there also has to be a plan on how to get there and that plan is hard to make.

Life is unpredictable, that’s just the way it is and everybody knows it. We also know that the only true way is to move forward, regardless of what it brings. Nobody wants to seem like they don’t know what they’re doing, it’s an unspoken thing and I think that’s part of what makes it so reassuring to learn that other people are trying to find their way through. It’s a journey that everybody takes so nobody should ever have to feel pressured to want or achieve certain things. I feel that the attitude towards living life and working towards a goal is to believe that the end will eventually be reached (as long as you put in the necessary work).

As I’ve gotten older, it feels like a duty to have everything figured out has developed but it’s not one that I asked for (I’m guessing that’s part of the whole adult thing). I could be going about my life in a way that’s different to the norm and when I see everybody else doing the norm, it makes me question if I’m doing things right when I should be evaluating if I’m still achieving the goals I set for myself. Whatever the case is, it’s good to know that I’m not alone in navigating life (or my lack of) because going through life without knowing what can happen is normal and it shouldn’t be looked at so negatively as long you’re not stagnating.

Not to say that I’m happy when people don’t know where they’re going but it’s nice to know that figuring life out is a universal process that doesn’t have a time limit.

Questionable lyrics

Is there a better face for this post than this?

It’s been a while since I’ve done one of these questionable lyrics posts but that just means that I’m mostly listening to music where musicians are behaving these days. I said in the last post that musicians have bars that definitely weren’t vetted before making it onto the final product and without doubt it’s going to be the case until the end of time, the real question is if these lyrics are ever going to be explained.

This edition is sponsored by one of the most elite rappers to ever grace us, Nas. I refuse to argue with anyone who doesn’t believe Nas is a top tier rapper because if it was to ever get to that, I’d throw you in a car and personally drive you to the most specialised of ENT’s (or a neurosurgeon). I don’t think any more needs to be said on Nas’ ability however, just because he can rap that doesn’t mean he can get away with saying some suspect shit. The bar in question is from his song ‘NY State of Mind’ where he says “I ain’t the type of brother made for you to start testing, give me a Smith and Wesson, I’ll have ****** undressing.”

(Me when I recently heard that line)

It’s not a completely unbelievable line where you have to ask what’s going on. Nas probably means that he’s going to rob people for the most expensive bits of clothing that they have on them but for the sake of this post, I still have to share some thoughts. Maybe it’s me but when someone says they’ll have another person undressing, I can’t help but feel that it means to get them fully naked. If we’re going with what I’m saying about Nas having ****** naked then the question is why. It’s actually happened in real life where people rob others and make them strip, I think it’s supposed to be humiliation thing but that’s just really weird. Think about it, you’re minding your own business and somebody comes to rob with a weapon, furiously demanding that you strip. You’ll probably do it but you’ll have some questions as well because it’s impossible to argue that it isn’t necessary.

To be fair, hip-hop is full of lines that make people say “what the fuck?” It’s like when people get into the studio, they just let anything out. I can only wonder what happened in the studio, there was definitely that one person who heard the bar and thought ‘I don’t know about that one, bro’ but didn’t want to publicly say anything because everybody else in the studio was bopping their heads to the beat. For the people who’ve heard the song, I wouldn’t be surprised if they’ve questioned doing unnecessary shit when robbing someone, yet praising the same line which talks about said unnecessary shit.

Thinking about it, I want to take as what I first assumed where Nas meant robbing expensive shit like watches and chains because as I write this post, I feel like I might be making a discussion where there isn’t one to be had. Still doesn’t change the fact that it’s a wild lyric that snuck its way onto one of the best songs I’ve ever heard.

Thoughts on Berserk 2016 (and 2017)



If you’ve watched the 90’s Berserk anime, then you know at the end Griffith evolves into Femto for the small price of a couple of souls (a bargain as far as anime I’ve watched goes) after that it goes a bit iffy and somehow Guts ends up setting out on a journey to search for his once best friend (I’m missing some details but this is really what happens). The ending left a lot of questions and mine was where do they go from there? Tragically, the answer is that Guts is now in a coma and imagining everything in 3D. I might not be telling the entire truth here but everything is definitely in 3D (this is important). Berserk 2016 (and 2017) kind of starts from where the 90’s series left off, it seems as if Guts is still after Griffith but pretty much everything and everyone he comes across is a distraction that he more or less accepts.

Me when I find out that I can get ultimate power if I sacrifice everybody who’s ever believed in me

The last part of the previous paragraph about Guts seemingly being after Griffith is what the show felt like. It was like the show expected me to have read the manga so that I could fill in any blanks, like Guts’ companion Puck’s introduction or how Guts escaped with Casca from the void filled with red faces. I was shown the progression of the story but it felt like context was lacking, especially with Guts. Guts is shown to be a character who keeps people around him at arm’s length but in this case, anything that wasn’t related to Casca was shown complete apathy by him. That’s why it seemed like the characters who joined Guts came across as distractions rather than companions that Guts didn’t mind having around. I did some research and it turns out that the anime skipped A LOT of details and tried to make up for it by mashing the details it did include together but the result wasn’t so great. Moving further into the anime, Guts’ focus looked like it shifted from Griffith to protecting Casca then eventually just moving forward because a story can’t progress if the main character is stagnant (if I’m honest, it was like after Schierke met the main characters she became the main character). So many characters were established and I’m not sure if there needed to be such a rush to do so because it felt like all the characters were extremely diluted and just about enough was done to follow the source material. The most interesting story development about Berserk goes 3D was when Guts donned the Berserker armour, but that came so late into the show that it was near impossible to explore (they must have done this with the assumption that a following season would come) and once again the ending of the anime didn’t really set anything in stone.

Watching Berserk 2016 (and 2017) showed me that the anime itself isn’t bad at all, in fact I bet that if I read the manga chapters which covered the show, I would have been excited because Berserk seems like a good story. For someone who hasn’t read the manga and only did a bit of research, I got the feeling that the anime didn’t adapt the manga well and that didn’t do any favours for the show or the viewers. At the end of the second season, it was implied that the show would be back at some point. I wouldn’t mind seeing Berserk come back as long as the anime isn’t approached the same way that the 2016 and 2017 series were. It’s important to know what’s going on in a series and it damages the experience if the show makes the assumption that the viewer is aware of everything that’s happened, especially if it doesn’t plan to clear things up.

The weirdest thing about this series was the animation. I’m not used to seeing CGI dominate anime like how it did Berserk and I don’t have a problem if that’s the art direction that it wants to take but one of things that attracts me to anime is how amazing it is when the animation is done right. I don’t have to say that Berserk got it wrong but I’m saying it anyway. There were times that I got past the animation because I was getting into the story and those are the moments of the show which displayed how good it could have been but there were at least twice as many times where the animation was hard to ignore. So many times through the course of the show, there were scenes which looked so unnatural and awkward, Guts killing a rabbit to cook it in the first episode of Berserk 2016 and every fight scene in the show comes to mind. When anyone talks about Berserk: The 3D Experience the first thing that they go to is the animation and it’s easy to understand why, it’s right in the viewers face, even the greatest effort couldn’t ignore it and it does a lot more than negatively impact the story. A lot of the emotion is missing from the show as well as the tension and implications of a lot of scenes because of the quality of the animation. Everything falls flat and as much as I want to, I can’t find a way to justify why the animation is so bad. Outside of the story, most of the things I questioned in this show came down to the animation and it was disappointing to see that the animation didn’t get better as the series went on, in fact episode nine of the 2017 season had some of the worst animation of the series. There’s a lot to say about the animation but to be honest, with how much I’ve read on this series that points to the low quality animation, it’s boring to be another one of those guys who spends a lot of time going in on it, just watch the series and see for yourself where all the criticism comes from (I’m not going to type animation anymore).


When I watched the 90’s Berserk, one thing that I pointed out was how some episodes didn’t really make use of the soundtrack. It was very different this time around; times where the soundtrack was used sparingly were rare, sometimes for better, sometimes for worse. Not to go on about the a*******n (which I’m going to do again) but it seemed like the show needed anything it could use to take attention away from it. The soundtrack was good but some songs were completely misplaced (Griffith’s rebirth comes to mind because it could have used something like this) and given that the show had already drawn a lot of WTF’s from me, this didn’t help. I couldn’t help but feel that the soundtrack would have been more epic if the a*******n was better but whoever composed it did a good job.

I’m not a hardcore Berserk fan so I’m not super offended by the choices the staff made when producing the show but, I can see how the hardcore fans might have been pissed off with the result. It’s clear that the story is good and the way this version of Berserk was delivered shouldn’t take away from that, personally I reckon that it only adds to greatness of the story to see that the quality was present despite the adaptation and if Berserk does return, it can take the criticism on board to create something that people won’t be disappointed with.

Other thoughts:

  • The opening theme is ok but it’s no ‘Tell Me Why’
  • Sometimes, watching this gave me the feeling of watching an abridged series. There was a moment where the Holy See were torturing people and Farnese didn’t want to look but Mozgus made her look and I couldn’t take it seriously
  • They never explained what happened to Casca and why she’s so childlike
  • Serpico and Farnese’s backstory is confusing. He got beaten up and then she came and told him that she owns him. Ok.
  • The impulse that made Guts want to rape Casca wasn’t explained so basically, he’s a piece of shit like Griffith
  • So many people want to rape Casca, what the fuck?
  • When Casca, Puck and Isidoro met Schierke it reminded of the seabear episode of Spongebob
  • Why do the apostles worship Griffith specifically instead of the God Hand?