Music feels

Do you remember song of the week? That series of weekly posts I did talking about the songs that I was feeling every week until my laptop decided that it would quit working for me and fulfill its dream of destroying its hard drive and being useless (it’s doing a really good job if you were wondering). If you do then this is for you.


I thought that I’d write about some songs and the feelings that I get from them because they made a lasting impression on me and it’s stuff that I feel won’t change even when I reach the age of 50 or further. You could say that this is the spiritual successor to song of the week but I’m definitely not doing this every week because fuck that.

I decided to put ‘Return of the Tres’ by Delinquent Habits and I’m not sure why because how it makes me feel isn’t great. I used to play this song all the time until I went to meet a girl (I should really say woman), I thought that we were going to bond over music since I talked to her a lot about it and she showed me a couple of decent tunes. I can’t say that things went well which sucks because this is one of the songs I showed her. I had a love for this song but these days I can’t play it too much because it reminds of her for some odd reason.

Is it only me that music does this to or have you had that kind of experience as well?


After university…

Me wondering what I was going to do with my life

You might remember my last post about working and blogging or you might not and just in case you don’t, let me just post the link….. here (still not good at plugging but you know…) Since getting a job, a lot has changed, I’ve become a lot smarter, a lot better and whole load of other cliché things that’s going to make you think “WOW! Jeffrey’s really got his life on track!” Actually I’m lying, it’s been three weeks and in that time the only thing that’s changed is that I’m bored, really, really bored. I don’t need to go into the details of my job and I hope my employers don’t ever come across this post because I can’t make money from being fired.

I’ve gone off track so I’m going to get on with the point and my point is this, that phase of not having a job is so incredibly underrated. Coming out of university, a lot of people I talked to were saying that they were going to get jobs (some even had jobs by that point) and I was in that boat where I felt like I needed to get a job as well. I saw a lot of videos which basically said not to worry about getting a job and instead go and fulfil goals because there isn’t always going to be time for that and I brought into it, but a part of me said ‘BULLSHIT!’ How was I meant to go and achieve goals without money? Was I meant to ask my mum for an allowance at my age? I don’t think I fully understood what those videos were saying though.

Basically my response to the videos.

Apparently, university is an incubation period between being a child and an adult; I guess that’s because you get to do a lot of shit that you wouldn’t usually do at home and there really isn’t anyone to put you in trouble. There’s a lot of shit that goes down when you’re away from home and it could possibly be one of the most insightful periods of your life but for me, I feel like the real incubation period starts after you leave university.

It’s not always guaranteed that you’re going to get a job straight after university so it means that you have a lot of free time to think and in that time there will probably (almost certainly in my case) be regrets over a lot of useless shit. The thing is, when you’re not feeling sorry for yourself you can take time to think about what you want to do in the near or far future and start formulating a plan. It’s not to say that you can’t do this at any other time but this is a concentrated period of time where you don’t really have any obligations and you’re also old enough to have an idea of what you want from your life.

You’d be surprised at the things you could think of whilst actively searching for a job and another great thing is that you’ll have the time and energy to make a start even if you don’t have the money. People might look down on not having a job but the thing about having a job is that it’s time consuming and it’s worse if it’s something that you don’t want to do because there will come a point where it was seen as a waste of time. I’m not trying to praise not having a job (even though I kind of am) what I’m trying to say is that the jobless period can really aid in personal development.

I’m not too sure that I’ve made myself clear so just to make sure, I’m saying to embrace that blank period after university and before getting a job.

Working and blogging ain’t easy

Remember when I said that working wasn’t easy? You might not so I’m just going to post the link here (I’m not even good at plugging anymore but you know…), I was right to say that but I want to correct myself (which means that I was wrong? I’m not really sure now). What I wished I had said was that working and trying to maintain a blog (especially without a laptop) isn’t easy, in fact I find it fucking hard!

I’m sure that most if not all the people that I follow on wordpress balance a job along with their blogs and I’m sure that most if not all of the people I follow have been blogging longer than I have too, so I have to give credit where it’s due. For all of you bloggers out there, I’m trying to get to your level and this is what I think of you.

Honestly, I thought that I’d get on top of it until I saw that I was a month behind with posts and it got worse because I wanted to write things as well, the time constraints on top of that mean that I don’t even get time to comment on all of the posts which sucks. If it weren’t for this weird thing I have where I feel I need to post at least once a month who knows what would have happened?

After seeing what having a job does to your free time, I appreciate bloggers even more now and I think this next video I’ll post helps (a bit) to explain it.

You know what? It doesn’t, I just wanted to post it.